Love & Fear

Happy Sunday everyone,

Today’s post will start in a somewhat creative mode. I was flicking through one of my many journals – (I am an occasional and inconsistent journal writer) and I came upon this poem or song I guess you’d call it. I named it ‘BREATHE’ball-393834_150

BREATHE

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What happens when there’s no plan ‘B?’ When life lands a punch, so strong you can’t breathe?

What happens when you’re naked and alone, too scared to stand still, but afraid to walk on?

CHORUS/REFRAIN

When the pieces of the jigsaw fail to fit, when we fail to trust, force the edges in. In that very moment, ego’s fire, kills the Alchemist within.

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Hold tight to yourself, breathe, don’t let yourself go, trust your life’s right, (just) let your spirit flow

The clouds weep in blue and the Earth’s wind blows cold. I pray SO hard to take my place, feeling tired, feeling old

CHORUS

When the pieces of the jigsaw fail to fit, when we fail to trust, force the edges in. In that very moment, ego’s fire, kills the Alchemist within.

The song appears between entries and notes dated 2002 and 2003 and what struck me about it was that I seemed to have encapsulated a couple of the main things that prevent us as spirit beings from identifying and achieving contentment, standing in our power and enacting our true purpose in this life. IMG_0412Namely FEAR and MISTRUST.

Osho says:

‘Fear is nothing but the absence of love. Do something with love, forget about fear. If you love well, fear disappears.’

Today I’m going to talk a bit about LOVE & FEAR.

sad-72216_150The debilitating result of fear

I have spent much of my life in fear. As a child I quickly learnt to fear my own power and magnificence. All my singing, speaking, opinions, laughter, successes inquisitiveness and loving actions seemed to be criticised. As a result, I spent much of my time feeling ‘wrong’ or ‘too much.’ I’m sure many of you have similar memories of childhood?

As such I learnt very early on to make myself small, to shrink and not upset or embarrass others or myself by being too excited or free. This then became a lifelong practise, perhaps this is the case for you too? Until I found myself, as the song says, unable to ‘breathe.’

Through this lifelong practise of rejecting our joy we become insecure and unsure and so in adulthood we are fearful. We no longer have a clear of what is our authentic self and so conform to what society says we should do/be/say.

Crippled, limping and alone

When we’re in fear our intuitive senses become blocked. When we are blocked it’s as if we are crippled in some way. Our intuition is overtaken by our ego, the voice that is in constant need for external approval, the voice that has complete belief in the world of the material, the world we’re taught is the one that really matters.

beggars-62851_150We’re still walking, you understand, but our gait isn’t straight nor is it sure-footed and every so often we go over on our ankle and the pain is excruciating!

In this world there is fear.

Fear is the absence of love. The absence of love creates Division: ‘Otherness,’  Division and ‘Otherness’ lead to Self-Protection, Self-Protection shuts us off (from ourselves, from others and the world) Shutting out means you’re alone…

Alone = Loneliness – Isolation – Disconnection

A state of feeling no contact with existence.thinking-236770_150

We’re crippled…limping, disconnected, discontented and alone!

The search for love

africa-17344_150Our intuition is the way God/Higher Power/Source/Allah/Jah/Yahweh/Universe speaks to and guides us. You access your intuition by allowing yourself to love.

For most of us to live purposefully we adopt a belief system of some kind, a connection to an external source to anchor us as we navigate through life and find our purpose, for we ALL have a purpose.

What we are really doing is looking for love and rightly so. It is in love that fear is driven out. If you’ve ever been in love, or if you have children, you know that in love, when you give it unconditionally and not in the form of some contract, you do not feel fear.

Love: Then you become fearless!

When you are fearless you neither create fear in others nor allow it to be created in you. You understand that love is of itself beneficial, so there is no need for conditions or contracts so you have no need for a return.

demon-201439_150Just by loving you grow in fearlessness and joy and so come to love just for the joy of it!

In loving you are more open to and more likely to hear the voice of whichever external power you subscribe to and in the listening you come to understand your purpose.

Why am I here?

love-229977_150It is only when we are fulfilling this purpose that we feel peace, feel fulfilled and to feel complete love and acceptance of ourselves and of others.

For many of us the search for that purpose and peace is elusive and we frantically  scrabble around for the answers to our existence; flip-flopping from one job to the next, adrenaline fuelled activities, drugs, alcohol, one relationship to the next vainly seeking, becoming despondent and wondering what the meaning of all this is anyway?

But it doesn’t have to be this way.

Have you ever done something, created something, helped someone, come up with an idea for something, answered a question you didn’t think you knew the answer to, overcome a fear, large or small and felt a profound feeling of just ‘completeness.’ A feeling that ‘THIS IS WHO I AM.’ as sense of acceptance and belonging.

As if the sun was shining just on YOU in that moment and  that you can do or be ANYTHING? It’s in those moments, that we are given the clues…the breadcrumbs in the forest that will lead us to our purpose in life.

person-110305_150What we are meant to do is ‘FOLLOW THE FEELING!’

 To create and seek out more situations and opportunities that re-create that feeling until it increases and increases and we are completely enveloped in ‘I AM.’

Increases and increases until we are FEARLESS and stand firmly, magnificently in the centre of the true essence of our being.

However, I’m sure you, like me will recognise what happens then. We can become afraid.

This feels ‘TOO’ good, we feel too powerful, too talented, too special and HOW DARE WE?

This is sacrilege.

Isn’t it?

lady-36446_150Who are we to feel god-like? and so we shrink… We go back to the familiar feelings of fear and mistrust. We’re safe with them. With them we don’t stand out, we don’t rock the boat. With them we are acceptable.

If I can get across ONE thing to you, beautiful readers today, it’s that we are here to be MAGNIFICENT. That every moment of everyday should feel awesome.

We are meant to live ‘Fearlessly’

Take it to heart, act on it.

Love: Yourself & others…

Love: Openly & unconditionally…

Follow those positive feelings to your BLISS and be in love with you…

IN LOVE WITH YOUR LIFE!

Blessings!

Insightful Angel

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